Yes. This one is all about Georgie. She's so unhappy right now it just melts your heart into a puddle of sad. She's been sick for a while now, and that could be the problem, or it could be the fact that life just won't get back to normal, or a combination of both?
A week ago, she was in love with 'da baby'. A week later, she still loves the baby, she still wants to crawl in bed with him, pet him, touch him, kiss him and change his diaper, but she seems to have realized that he's not going away either, and that he is, without a doubt, taking her Mommy and Daddy away some of the time, that she is no longer receiving 100% of our attention. Not that we are neglecting her! Not a chance. Sven hardly has Dean at all, and when he does, she complains loudly and me? I am making sure to take time where I put Dean away and am just with her. Cuddle time, playtime, naptime...and so far I am lucky that Dean is willing to be put down and hang out on his own, something Georgia never would have done.
but today? Today Georgia is clingy, needy, whiney and can't stop crying. Every little thing turns her into a puddle of clingy tears. Even when we stop what we are doing, go to her and hug her, hold her, comfort her, she can't stop crying. She is just miserable, my poor baby. Maybe she's just having one of those days. One where you just can't stop crying and you don't really want to. One where you are unhappy with yourself and everything around you. And if that is the case, maybe tomorrow will be better. Maybe she'll be happier. Maybe she'll be calmer, play and laugh and run around. I hope so, because my little crybaby is making me want to cry right along with her and give the big 'ol world a punch in the nose for making her so miserable.
And hey? If it's just the cold, then we just need a few more days and it'll be over!
Despite the whiney, unhappiness, doesn't she look adorable today? I love these jeans (her Grandad picked them out). They are so cute, and so dark they don't appear to get dirty easily. And they match everything.
Cynthia October 13, 2007 05:48 AM PDT Good pick Grandpa! I am impressed!
christy October 13, 2007 03:40 PM PDT Amber,
I'm kind of a lurker, but first, congratulations on the new little guy...he's just wonderful!!
Second, a bit of "been there, done that." My two boys are the same spacing as Georgia & Dean and we went through the same thing. No sugar coating: it sucks.
But remember, as a mama, you've done the greatest thing in the world for Georgia ('though she won't realize it for a while, maybe a long while.)
You've given her a lifelong best friend, teammate and someone who will love -- like you do -- no matter what.
That's the good news.
The bad news? You think you hurt now when she's sad 'cause you're with the baby? Wait 'til you see how bad it feels when she gets older and gets mad at you and prefers HIM to anyone else.... :-) That will happen, no doubt, and that will mean that you've done your job correctly.
Hang in there and know -- for sure -- that you're doing everything just right and it will all be OK in the end.
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